The older I get, the less I care about what people think of me. Therefore, the older I get, the more I enjoy my life!
When I was between 12 and 17 years old, I spent a couple weeks every summer with my fabulous grandma on her farm in Moses Lake. I am a farm girl at heart, and loved everything about being there with her and my grandpa: cousins, tacos, canals and silly made-up songs. One very normal day, my grandma pulled out her scarfs and hats, and told me to get ready, we were heading to town to deliver brownies to the gas station attendees, then on to Ross to drop off plants for some of their employees, then get soda pop for her neighbor friends. In that moment I seared this image of my amazing grandma singing and dancing into my memory bank. She showed me who I could and wanted to be!
She is fearless, faithful, confident and good!
I still reflect on a poem on her wall that reads:
Age 3: She looks at herself and sees a Queen.
Age 8: She looks at herself and sees Cinderella.
Age 15: She looks at herself and sees an Ugly Sister (Mom I can’t go to school looking like this!)
Age 20: She looks at herself and sees “too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly”- but decides she’s going out anyway.
Age 30: She looks at herself and sees “too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly” – but decides she doesn’t have time to fix it, so she’s going out anyway.
Age 40: She looks at herself and sees “clean” and goes out anyway.
Age 50: She looks at herself and sees “I am” and goes wherever she wants to go.
Age 60: She looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can’t even see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.
Age 70: She looks at herself and sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.
Age 80: Doesn’t bother to look. Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.
My darling grandma’s example showed me how to love myself, all of me, and how to grow in goodness and faith. I decided during those summers with her on the farm to always strive to be me and to be kind. What someone thinks of me has nothing to do with me or how I think of or value myself. As long as I am right with God, and continually reaching for him as I embrace who I am and who I am striving to become, all is well. I do not bother to look, but am determined to go out and have fun with the world! As Christie Gardiner said, “When we stop looking for ways to prove our worth, we settle into the knowledge of our divinity.”
The older I get, the more I enjoy my life. I encourage you to embrace who you are and do the same!
In love and happiness,